To understand other and to be understand by other

I really dont get it how to understand people exactly and perfectly... But its harder even more to make people understand about me...
I though by trying and giving all I can give to understand other, it will make other also at least try to understand about me...
They said, they want to be accepted as what they are. But then when my turn comes, they just cant accept or try to understand me the way i am...
What are the prize I get? I got guilt on me, swearword, and all is just like MY FAULT ONLY...
while I feel that he/she also have done the same thing, i try to understand and its ok. but then.... They just like never think about it. I dont mean to be calculative here, but im also a human. I got limit, even though i've always try to push that limit further. I can say I'm start to worn out by this...

What did i do wrong until i must feel like this?? it is just not fair....

I TotallY hate CLubbing~~

A nightclub (also known simply as a club, discothèque or disco) is an entertainment venue which usually operates late into the night. A nightclub is generally distinguished from bars, pubs or taverns by the inclusion of a dance floor and a DJ booth, where a DJ plays recorded dance and pop music.

The music in nightclubs is either live bands or, more commonly, a mix of songs played by a DJ through a powerful PA system. Most clubs or club nights cater to certain music genres, such as techno, house music, trance, heavy metal, garage, hip hop, salsa, dancehall, Drum and Bass, Dubstep or soca music. Many clubs also promote playing the Top 40 which has most of the night playing the most broadcast songs of the previous week...

That's what Club is... And Honestly I like those Kind of music played at the Club... Beside that, I totally Hate that place... I've tried to go there since my friends ask me to and i think i should know how is the situation and condition there just 4 experience...

The Result... I dont like it and simply hate it... dont ask me why, but u can see how much i dont like that place from my Face anyways...

Im not saying clubbin is a bad place for a bad person. Cause i dont want to judge and become so called Holy person who do no Sin...

U can have fun there, drink, dancing, listen to the music, have a party and also make new "friends"

but seeing from the fact there are a lot of case happen... Bad one and im sure nobody want to Lost anything belong from him/her which is precious...

Summary:


"Screw that place... I hate it... "

What is true Friendship after all~

Friendship....
 Is a Wonderful Word, Full Of smile and Also tears Within it...
No Human Can live without it, Even the Strongest man wont last Without Friends~
Friends is What I always Like to have, No matter how close they are to me friends... I do respect, Appreciate and care for them...
This Night i wonder what and How is a true friends Really are...
bcause there's this saying that, Friends are easy to make, easy to found But true friends are Diamond. rare Yet Precious...
but Since I got Friends, a Lot of them. I kinda thinking now... Who are my true Friends actually? Does its called a friend When we oftenly go out and Hang around with them only? Or When we found someone Who really are look and act like ourselves? Same Hobbies? is it really true that there's no human can live without friends? Does My friend feel the same thing? What should we do when we feel like Everyone included the one we called friends were show Their back on us?
I cant answer those and yet still got a lot more question...
I believe in true Friends which walk in when The rest of the world go out... But who?
I believe true Friends is the Nicest thing we can have and We can be...
I hope I'll Know who are My true Friends really are..
God Bless You and All My friends wherever they are now...

"The antidote For Hundred of enemies Is One friend"

un jour où je rencontre un ange

11.08.10 11:15 Pm

I was staying at My place lay around and Look Into My window, I see this Light In the middle of the night passing by the sky~~ I close My eyes and i can feel the wind pass by and whisper... "this is it.." it said.. Then I open My room's Door, I decide to go out for a walk.
I was Walking out On top if this Earth By Myself until I found this "one winged AngeL" who comes to me and Walk with me that time.. I feel comfort and warm full of Laugh and joy, do U ever heard that if we can hear a ring of bells that means Angels are around us? I heard it that time Through Her laugh, Her voices . . Something inside me just like... HappY...
its Been a While I never feel Something Like this, I oftenly feel Im drowning, Im falling down, and I just can't get up.. But then this "Angel" Lift me up Into The Sky with her wing together with Mine..

Kakiku duluuuuu~ tak Beginii~~~

I really Really love futsal ~ no matter what people say but yesterday i got this Wound Damn it ! hwhwhwhwh..XD
I got another futsal game coming, should I go?? hm...
Confuse Confuse Confuse~~~ How??? Someone Help me~~~

My Love My Passion

Soccer is Where I'm addicted to

is What I always love to do

is When I play and Forget everything

is was my passion, now and Ever

No One can stop me Playing It

My love is Like a Soccer Game
the field is my life I am the player
the ball is my heart and the goal
is you, ill keep hitting the keeper
till the ball gets closer to you...

And Goaaaal ~~~~~~~

We are the Champion !

 

Thats me in the yellow Jersey and Finally !!! Me and My team Komando (komunitas anak Indonesia) has win The UCSI Sport Carnival Futsal Tournament 2010 ! witwiw.. we are so happy to achieve it together As one Just like Komando's motto..Even though some of us were have not enough sleep that time hihi~ but we play good, we play hard, And we Win The game=P even though 2nd runner up, but it is achieve with hardworks which make anything so special with it.. Looking forward for next tournament ! huahahaha XD Im in love with soccer since Kinder garden until now and 4ever !!!!
NExt maybe October there will be another tournament, Hope I can join the team once again to take the trophy ~ God Bless Us !

What Am I feeling Right now exactly??

Day by day Has past, New term has start, Some assignment will be finish in No time...
Beside Those Daily activity i always done, I feel Something is just not right in Me, Myself and My life..
Dunno What's the thing make it seems uncomplete.. Hmp.. at this hour i've just Tried to sleep but I cant.. again.. it happens Many time already...~_~ dunno What to do? Should Smack Myself Until im collapse?? Sounds stupid, Lucky i still got my Logic Here..
hmp...
what I can Say is just, BORING... it is so Freaking Boring... I feel Not comfortable Everyday, I always want something But i dont even know what;s the thing I want... sounds Weird, it is... I even sometimes look at my reflection and ask..."What exactly Do u want?? What are U Looking For actually?" still I cant find the answer... Do I need Money? I got...Do I need Friends? i think I got.. Do I need love? hm.. Maybe... hahahaha sounds Desperate.. XD
I cant even Understand Myself..
I was thinking do i have this kind of feelin before? I think bout 20 minutes... and I think yes. when I feel lost someone I really Love.. why a~? I dont feel I want to turnback time to The Past, or maybe what I want is someone who really cares for me? not as family or friends, maybe more than that. maybe I am truly desperate...=_=\ Is it my feeling Beat My Mind? My GOd ~ i really dunno what happens To me ~! argh.... feels like want to explode ~ KABOOOM !!!!
SmiLe  SmiLe SmiLe Is what I've to do Now... That's what I try to Tell Myself... But It's just so Damn Hard>.<\ Maybe the Question is, "Who is the One Out there Can make Me Smile SmiLe SmiLe?"... I can say the distance Of me and my fams are far right now... My best Friends Also... And I'm single hwhwhwwh... I should been More Thankful for what i have now.. Some people just have less Than me.. But still Im Human here>,< Really dunno What to do Im so Confuse... i think there's no use to think so much Now...
better try to sleep again... heuh~

favourite Kits

Once again Im Confuse to Choose Between Two Choices...~,~ Well its Not something So Important for some peoples but It is for me... hm..
it is about something that I Use In my favourite Activity=P
Soccer ~~~~~
First of all I like Black red And White, I like To ShooT In Soccer playing after Goalkeeping..
ANd Last week I planing to buy a new pair of Futsal Shoes... Which One should I choose???
Adidas Preadator or Nike t90??? hmp hmp hmp....>,<\

Back To KL

Im back to KL... AGAIn... SO Freakin Lazy Honestly Dunno WHy hwhwhwhw...
Maybe because Leisure is all the way back In my Hometown hohoho...
Well then I cant let may Guard Down Now... Must go Slowly, catch my spirit Back and do all The Best For the Best Result ~! GanbattE Me !!! >,<
I kinda Confuse bout tomorow.. Should I go Class?? Hm... 1st week Always got nothing to do.. I bet some of my classmates will bring cards hehehehhehe...
Let's see FOr tomorrow la.. Hope I can wake Up...
nite nite ~~~

Garink Pisan~ Plus Emosi~ gini nee~

Gilee Gileee~ Plg Bandung, Guwe dah tunggu tunggu dr kpn bs plg.. Gw pikir Gw bs maen ma tmen2 rame, trus~ tp... its so different with what I expected... I see Now "They" Got Their Own Business to Do Every single day.. They said To me, lets Go do this and that but.. Practically it was words Only No action ... NATO~ No action Talk Only... hate those Words... Who's My real Friend Actually I really Dont Know Who.. I thought it was them, It was her, It was Him.. But practically I really Not sure who's The one... Hahahaha~ What a "Friends" I have...
I was Really Try To gather them around  But No one seems to Give a shit about it... for now I Don't wanna care about them Already~ I will Do what I wanna Do, I dont Give A shit bout them anymore~ There was a time I see that They Come to me when They Need SOmething From me, I see How they Make friends, They make Friends to People which They can Take advantage From.. I really cant believe i said this but It is the fact From what I see and I feel... I feel Sucks, and Stupid bcause I realize I still need Friends... why cant I Feel Comfort when Im alone? I wish I can~ am I Hard to Be understand By People? Or it is just There's No one Can understand Me at all....  Tomorrow I will go Somewhere COmplete My List.. I Dont care With what People ask me to do, I want to enjoy this once a year Holiday... Dont wanna talk and Dont wanna Hear~ Let's see what will "they" Do? Do they care? Or They are Really like what i've said "Dont give a Shit About it..."

To All My fake Friends

U sAiD dat u HaD mY bAcK
ThRoUgH tHe GoOd TiMeS aNd ThE bAd
WhEn I wAs HaPpY oR wHeN i WaS sAd
BuT wHeN i TrUeLy NeEdEd U
AnD cOuLdN't MaKe It ThRoUgH
WhEn I LoOkEd BeHiNd Me To SeE iF u WeRe ThErE
I ReaLiZeD dat u TrULy DiDn'T cArE

Soccer Is My passion

Soccer is the game

My life My Passion And My Game

Soccer gives my fame
it gives me life, Cheer and SMiLe

Soccer is what make me live
soccer is what makes me give

soccer is the start of it all
soccer is simply better then Eveything 

When I'm HappY I Am playing Soccer

When I'm Sad I want to play Soccer

When Im in Love I Share Soccer with Her

When Im Single I have Love for Soccer


When I'm Healthy I play Soccer
When I'm Injured I watch Soccer


Whenever, Whatever Soccer Fever Forever~~
Some people say soccer's a matter of Win Or lose, but it isn't.  It's much more important than that...

Back To Hometown(^,^)/

2nd July 2010

Finally I can Go back fly to My Hometown Bandung~ With all Memories in 19 Years, Time Seems So fast Goes By~ I wish I can meet everyone Who take a Role In the scene Of my Life^^
friends, relatives, teacher, Some1 more than that hahaha XD
it feels So COld here~,~ maybe bcause i get used to Hot place like KL.. *jacket On
Flashback are always show up when Im hang around anywhere In Bandung~ I miss some of it, I laugh to some of it, and I can Accept Some of it~
Life are so beautiful whenever we Find it so Hard or easy..
Life is hard to understand but we can learn to understand it~
But unfortunately this time i Kinda stuck, No Driving license, mine was expired already...>,<\
Im waiting for it to be finished, i kinda thinking does this mean i need to spend my time more at home??
haiah~~~
Im lookin forward to go Hang out, SOmeone Saves Meee~~~~T,T
Futsal FutsaL FutsaL, I like it Very much and Nothing can stop From playing it~ hwhwhwhw...
I realize Everything we Likes today Some of them was found In our Childhood.. Childhood can affect how a person Lives their Life..


"The older I grow the more earnestly I feel that the few joys of childhood are the best that life has to give. "

Life is Just Like a Line..*inspired by a COnversation

Life is just like a line, And We are Now In the end of it Keep On going make a Line.. The past are Still there at the back In previous spot We've been Lined..
What's after and Before Us Is a tiny matter Compare to what's within Us..
can we do About the past?
its past already
what can we found from think think and think about Future?
It havent arrive yet
what can we do from what's within us?
a Lot
then how bout the past and future?
Do we must forget the past and ignore the future?
NO
We can learn something from the past, we can make a Sketch for Future
But most importantly
We Must Decide In what's within us now
It is a line
Imagine
Its a line On a Piece of paper
when the line arrive at the end of the paper
We can decide to bend up or down
to continue with the line
rather than stop in the edge of the paper itself
when the paper got no more space to draw a line, Like when U feel Its a dead end up ahead
we still can Open a new page
To start again make another line.. A better one~

So Never Give Up On ur Life, There's always Something That's worth To FIght For~~~~

Eggs Song~

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Just wanna Share this Cute Eggs Singing~

Smoking Controversy

Smoking... Is it Bad, Or is it Okay? I can Say it is Not Good and Also Not Bad~ i bet Majority of people Will Say it is bad~ I dont Denied That Smoking Is Dangerous for Ur health Even the Producer tell That To Us.. But then Smoking Also Can Enhance Sociality Believe or not Cigarette can build a friendship^^ I witness it by Myself hahaha=D Well I didnt say smoking is Suppose to be Encourage But let's See Smoking From Other Point Of we shall we? Because nowadays I found Thousand Of people Look at Smoker as like they are A BAD GUYS, A SINNER(Maybe they think They are Holy), NAUGHTY, well the point is always Bad...>,<\ First, peoples who choose to SMoke Is their own Choices. I bet all Of them know what's the risk for Smoking. Its Their Choices. I am A smoker, I know the risk, I choose to smoke, Please respect My Decision.. I think That's what Every smoker wants when They get offended by those who Dont like to smoke and try to "help" them.. i know that what they are meant to do is Good, But... maybe Unconciously Offend The Smokers.. Who's The bad guy now?
second, They Think Smoker are BAd peoples, Smoking cant guarantee a person is a bad person~ Especially if a girl is smoking, peoples will see them like "ieuh~~" Wonder why... They Judge people From the Cover.. and also I found One of my friend told me that, If His parents know that He's hanging out with friends which is Smoking, He will be Told not to hang out with Those kind of People... What The?? Is that How a Grown UP People Think?? Lot of people Dont Smoke, But they Drink Liquor, Use Drugs~ its worse~
Even I can Say, people Who come often to church also cant guarantee he/she is a GOod Person...
Third... I Experienced Once, there's this One person.. She told me Smoking is a Sin... So Undirectly She said Im One Hell of a Heavy Sinner>_< well she told One sentence from the Bible, I dont say its Wrong And I dont say its correct also...
I kinda Thinking that time, is there "No Smoking" In the ten CommandmentS?
I feel Offended that time seriously.. I feel Like want to say "Mind ur own business" or "Get The **** outta my face">,<
That's cigarette in Sociality
In History 
Cigarette was Founded First time in central america by mayan Tribe.. They Smoke Tobacco through a long pipe then brought by the Aztecs, brought again to Spain then To france.. In france they Modified, reduce the size and rolled inside a paper then it called a cigarette after..^^
In romance(feel kinda awkward but, i just wanna share)
Boys, when they are Gathering it was all smokers that time. They talking bout Girls, Girls Nowadays seems like cant accept when they found their Lover is a Smoker. But then We wonder, Some of the parents, the Husband are a smoker but still can be accepted.. why a~? is this changes occur as time goes by to modern era? hahahaha~ but then WE can say, we should keep on smoking to find the girls who really can accept Us whatever We are.. sounds a bit weird for excuses, but its not wrong also hahaha..XD
Until today Smoking is still A controversy, I see also there's electric cigarette.. i wonder how's the taste, I imagine it taste like U suck a battery...>,< wkwkwkwkwk...
if I Stop smoking one day I wont say I will Before, and, if or But. I will just stop..

"To smoke or not to smoke:  I can make of either a life-work."

Finally I can continue write Blog hehehe... These past few days, I got some things I want to share but I just felt I dont feel like to, Because of daily activity make me so Tired...
These things Were On My mind
first...
Sadness, Broken Heartache, Stress, Depression, etc... all this kInd Of feeling is the Fruit that Appear When Life Turn us Down anytime...
I believe Every People Ever Had These kind of feeling maybe Once twice Or even More..
If we see these Just like we see a food I can say I taste All already, And its Not so good>,<\ First time when U taste it, The Flavour will feel like it will last for a long time, Yes it is But then After we can get The recipe, And we can find What's a good choice for the dessert.. Sweet Things Is always what best for dessert, I believe everyone will agree=)
In This case, Dunno why I still can feel the taste Till Now>,< hmp... Lucky I know why, what to do... Have you ever been hurt and the place tries to heal a bit, and you just pull the scar off of it over and over again.. I think That is what happen>,< hwhwhwhwhhw
next One I want to share
Lets make it short..
I watch a movie, karate Kid ! damn Funny and Nice One^^ jackie chan Movie ! Like it so much ! When I watch the Movie, I got these words "Life sometimes Turn us Down, But then Is Our choices whether we want to get up or not", I feel something knock me from the inside... That's true.. that's why, I Choose to Get up ~ the day I change my Blog title^^ Feel New again, Even though SOmetimes still...
Next
These past few Days, I was Observing Peoples around me. At workplace, at home, at the Street, everywhere that i go.. I found that, People really have a lot of variety. Some are silent, Talk active, Blur, smart, lazy, hardworking, bad or good attitude ETC... its a combination from it that make Us Unique^^
Today My weekend Ruined, bcause of stupid Function>,< I wake Up so early, I cant even feel this is Saturday... I wanted to Sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep for a long time, Heal myself>,< but I cant say anything.. I kinda feel, In the Future when I work, How Bout my weekend?*worried Face~_~\
Well, That's life... Like it or not, Keep On Moving !!
But For now I
Feel so tired... I wanna sleep like a Pig Now AHahahahaha....

I think I dont want to be alone~

I got Friends, A lot of it... here there and at many places^^
Im So Glad to hear that come out from myself..
But...
There's something i feel is just not right, I feel Cold, Not even warm...
There was a time I was Down, and I Called my friends, through internet, Message and telephone.. Nobody I could reach that time.. everyone was go Out and Im the one Who left Alone~ sounds So pitiful right, But i never feel that I need a pity...
That time I go Drive Alone at Night, The night Where I lose The One I loved. isnt that I wanted to lost her, but it was a hard situation... She ask me to and I cant be selfish.. I feel Im a glass that breaks and Shattered everywhere... Its almost impossible to arrange it together again. it tooks me 4 years to collect it but its still so fragile..
I need Someone to talk, or at least listen to me.. I know I got friends, but they was not there.. I was on my own Facing everything. I was lost dunno what to do, While I drive in a midnight i Looked at the sky running my hands through my eyes and say how can all the Wonders and Dream I built, everything I got that is Given for it. It was all Break... I put my Hope on the sky but even the sky falling down on me, put me on the Ground then Stomp on me...
I Ended up alone, start from that day, the next day, Another next day, the other next day and it happens like that everyday... Finally I can talk to my friends, But It doesnt help me. some of them taking it lightly, some of them angry at me because i was stupid they said. I know why the reason the said that, but i was hoping that they would say "Im understand.."
Nobody can Really understand me except me. that;s what appear in my mind That time, Until now... I got a lot of new friends, i hang out with them, but it is just me or is it the truth that whoever Am i with, I ended Up alone again again and again.. can u imagine U were with our friends, They are having a chit chat laughing but its only you who stay in the middle just stay there, nobody talks to you, nobody listen to you.. maybe they were see me but they didnt look at me, they heard me but they Didnt listen to me... feels like U just a Statue for rooms Decoration.. Lucky I got principle, I believe in me, I dont need to depends on them, i can do it by my own.. It was a hard time I try to pass through but Finally I manage to get up By my own, I oftenly got another new Friends, but i never think I had one True Best friend.. I think it was ok, Just be a Good One, and u will receive what u give... but Im Human, I want to receive something also... But i never had... I always ended up alone, After good Times, Bad times, Still I will ended up alone.. And I dont want to be alone...
I need Someone Who really cares
I need Someone Who Understand
I need Someone Who Always there For me
I need Someone Who Love me
I need Someone Who can accept me whatever I am is
As a Friend or more...
Im tired of being alone, I cant and I dont want to Purposely looking for attention
but then What should I do?
I choose to stay Be myself in any condition, But it's hard when U Dont have anyone really care to you...
If U have One, Or more than one.. Tell Them That U love them, Friends or more. Just tell them That U do.. Bcause out there lot of people just like me.. Ended up alone cant be The lucky one Like You do...

Well I dunno why I write this, Im still try to get through it the fact That I feel im alone..
But I try to be positive, look at another point of view that someday when I found that SOmeone. it would be One of the greatest moment of my life...
If U feel Like I do, Try be positive, keep on Believe... Whenever u are a falling down and u got no one to help there's still God Who always Love His Children. He wont let You down.. Be positive be a gOod, U receive what U give..

Just like this Picture, I was down on the ground without no one to help me Get up.. But I finally manage to get up pass by everything and I reach up the Mountain Top.. But once again Im ended Up Alone Up there...

20Th Birthdays ! So long Teenagers Period...(^^,)")

5th June 2010 Is finally Come, And Twenty Years ago a Child was born to This Life...
And that Child Is me^^
Today I celebrate My Birthday, I can say its Different than other Birthdays I had Before^^
I remember My birthday when i reach 5 years old, I always so happy because I will receive a lot of presents, the funny part is I always ask 4 something before it, hope that I will be given the things I want=P ehehehehe... U know what? It is Effective Huahahaha=D I ended up with all toys With Wheels Attached on it=E
Than I leave My toddler period after 11th birthday comes^^ its started to change again, Teenager times is the time where kids Become a boy.. Start calling each other like "Dude" "man" Or "choy". start act like a mature but still unstabble>,<\ Emotion problem, Start to Feel that we called Love or i can say "monkey Love", Nowadays i can say what our parents say about Monkey Love is really Correct^^ ahahahaha....
my birthday Before this, I can say It was So blue, Feels like being forgotten by some People that i can say they got meaning for me.. i was 18th that time..hahaha.. but I passed through it^^
and Now, My teenager period may have ends, my age start with 2 already~,~\ Feel like there's changes in me^^ but I believe "Growing old is mandatory and growing up is optional.. A birthday is just the first day of another 365-day journey around the sun." 1 day before my 20th birthday comes, i think that... The older U are getting the More responsibility U have, The Older U are getting You should Be like a rice-plant the More rice it got the More It Bend Down.. be humble^^ Im not 20 years Old By the way, im still eighteen But with 2 years Experience ehehehehe=D Stay Young ! Time Is a great teacher for me but a lousy Beautycian !>,<
I Dunno what to say anymore, I just wanna enjoy My trip to another 365 day go Circling the SUn with this Ark called earth and this Road Called Life...

My 1st Bday present^^

My 1st 20th Bday Card

I believe and I hope You do too

I believe that the sun shines after the rain
I believe if you don't get hurt you'll never gain
I believe in not doing things the easy way

I believe in a second chance
I believe there is life after death
And standing up to a life of mess
I believe that revenge isn’t right

I believe that first impressions last
And there is nothing better then a good laugh
I believe that dreams do come true, I believe there's destiny for you,
I believe something good comes from something bad I believe everyone has one

I believe there's destiny for you
I believe that good things come to those who wait
I believe it will never arrives too late
I believe something good comes from something bad

I believe that for tears of happiness there are tears of sad
I believe everyone has a guardian angel
And the good you do will be rewarded well
I believe sometimes there is no explanation

I believe money can't buy people's affection
I believe you don't know what you've got until it's gone
I believe a new day arrives with every dawn
I believe a smile can be contagious

I believe in living with no regrets
I believe that life is as good as it gets
I believe that God watches over us
I believe the little things are worth the fuss

I believe you have each friend for a reason
I believe you will get punished for treason
I believe that what comes first is family
I believe we should all live in harmony

I believe in making the most of a beautiful day
And it's not the end until everything's okay
I believe you will lose if you sit and wonder
I believe every experience teaches you a lesson

I believe that to learn you have to live
I believe that to receive you have to give
I believe one moment can change your life
And there's still help when you’re in strife

I believe in the power of a song
And things will change before too long
I believe living is the best experience
I believe its hard to receive the one we love is gone
And when they’re gone all you can do is breath

I believe to always look on the bright side
I believe that life is just one big ride
I believe It wont be easy go through This Life
But I believe We can Pass Through All the obstacles
and I hope You do too...

A person can Do anything If He/She Willing to do it

Do you Know Doraemon? I bet a Lot of People Know him^^ Like me, I can say I grew up with Doraemon, Since i was a little Child I like Doraemon very much.. And I can say, Until now>,< hehehe...
I had my first Comics of Doraemon when Im in kindergarden. I was So Excited to have it, Its an adventure series number 15, I still remember the stories that Nobita needs to make a Summer Projects and Doraemon helps him and it leads them to one Adventure in their own project^^
after that I start to collect one by one every time I go to mall, I always want to go to The bookstore and FInd DOraemon.. Then the result, I manage to Collect all series, all number, and all Special Edition hihihihi=D I kinda miss them, bcause every time I Eat, I was bored I always read it again an again..^^ I bring it to school secretly also hehehehe=D
This Video I Found 18 Years after I start to like Doraemon, So sad, I feel kinda Touched by this Video.. Sounds so sensitive>,<\
But then From this video we can learn something, About Friendship, Appreciation And How A person Can achieve anything what He/She want..
First Nobita and Doraemon are Close Friends, They always Together, Doraemon was never absent to Help Nobita, We can see that maybe They had an argue but still they care each other, lot of story if i must tell every little part of it. But then When the times Doraemon runs out of batteries and Might be Lost his memories. Nobita realize that after a long time he never say thank you properly.. We cans see he's kinda regret about it, this teach us That If U had any feelings to someone U love as friends, Family maybe, Express it, Tell them... Because u won't know About tomorrow if there's Something happen and Prevent Us to say it..
Then Last thing, We can see after Doraemon was motionless, And Nobita See that nothing he can do for him, He was determined to Study harder harder and harder to Find How To Bring Doraemon back.. 35 years He Keep on Do it With persistence.. Start with a crybaby boy, Who always got bullied and Never Shine in his class, he start to change... He believe he can do it and With the spirit Finally He achieve to Bring Doraemon back..^^
This teach us Not to give up, We can achieve things we want when we keep on believe, hardwork, persistence and Never ever give up. Mistakes are not intended to make us Down, rather it makes Us stronger...

Blue...

Today I Dunno Why But im feelin sooo... Blue...
Is it because i'm just tired or There is something bother me.. Whether directly or somewhere deep Inside "here"..("--)
I see the Sky, its gray and its raining outside just like what i feel...
I hate this halfway kind of feeling.. I see that Nothing is wrong with me, but Why Do I feel like something is just not right... I wish i can get the answer...
I look at the mirror and I see me Frown.. I was thinking that, I always can Say "keep smile" But Sometimes i Cant apply it To myself.. Feel so Empty.. it's all Become one and this feeling makes me crazy..
The time I write this, I feel so alone... Like i have nobody^^ sounds so pity, But Im not looking for sympathy.. By looking for sympathy i believe it will makes me Look pathetic...
and I dont want that... I prefer Write it here...
there was a time Im tired of this life, I feel Im all by myself, dunno where am i, I feel lost, I was at the place where i think im not belong.. but then I found a reason to keep On Movin..
"life is just like riding Bicycle, U must keep on movin" and maybe sometimes u can take rest for a while then keep on goin.. That's what my friend added^^
well... Maybe What i need now is just taking a rest...
And soon I must move again...

Chicken Fever . .

Chicken fever is what i Had Today>,<\ So Uncomfortable I feel today after finish my work... What's the Connection between chicken and my work? Here's the Story.... Today I work just like ussual 10am-6pm, I work in western Kitchen department.. and One of my duty is to Prepare Things for the next day.. and I was surprised today with what i get..Today... I get a task to prepare 100 chicken Chop and 80 Chicken Cordon bleu... DANG I said...>,<\ usually i Just need to prepare 40 each.. but at first I think it will Just be easy la, I got a partner to do this things with me and he also surprised with it^^ hahahaha... First we take out The Chicken from the freezer to be defrost after, we need 2 sink to defrost all... after 3 hours then we can take out the chicken start to trim here there and everywhere... Marinade and wait to be processed again... wow, the chicken smell makes me sick already that time... Feel like Doesnt wanna touch chicken anymore>,< until now im still fee sick of chicken... This is another type of chicken fever..~,~ By the way, when I think about it suddenly I remember.. because i Joined the World Wildlife Fund to Support them protecting the Endangered species, and That time Got One person Send this post, she said that She's upset and disappointed in how Human treat Chicken.. She send a Link on youtube ABout discovery channel which Show how Does a Chicken's egg produced to be Consumed.. She put comment on the Video, in the short story The chicken is put in a Long cage For all the hen, it looks like a big prison, The hen's head will pop out from the cage to eat. The Conveyor belt will keep on rolling to feed the Chicken, and when the Chicken lay egg it will automatically goes down to another set of canal to another part to be Processed, checked for quality... Unfortunately this hen cant keep on producing eggs in high Quality, as time Goes by and the chicken's age increases the Egg quality will decrease.. It was explained inside the Video by the Discovery channel.. U know what? After The hen was Working Hard To produce egg or should i Say being pushed to Produce egg WHat does the Human Do after that?? They send The hen To the slaughter House... u know what happen next... After i read and watch the Video, I kinda thinking... it's so Cruel... Even Though Chicken is a Chicken, They are animal, But they also had a feeling Like us Humans...~_~ I dunno is it because I like animal personally or it is Cruel to see Chicken treated like that? mm... We do appreciate life as Human, But do we appreciate another living things life? Should we? My answer is Yes.. How About you? imagine if animal can think like Us, And they have a religion... Who is The devil for them?

"Every life God made in all the creatures and gave them love and fear, To give sign, we and they are His children, as one family to fill this Earth"

They had Expressions and feelingThey had a friendshipThey Have Hearts and Love Inside it...

"Hahaha....." "Hihihihi....." "huehehehehe..." "Wakakakaka..." "Hohoho...."
There are many type Of laughter We Can Heard from peoples... What do they Feel when they are laughing? What Do You feel?
We feel happy Right? When we feel Happy we SMile, and Laughter is A burst Smile^^ I think Laughter can Spread Just Like smile=) in My experience, I got a friend. He likes to tell a jokes, But sometimes Honestly The Jokes are Quite lame>,< But All laughing, Do u know why? Because of his face so funny=E
He's one of my best friend until now...
Well Nowadays Im Still doing my entrepreneurship at College, It is so Boring doing the same things everyday and All of us Looks So stress. Pressure, Problems, Complaints, etc Internal or external problems We face every days^^
Its so tired everyday, But Laughter Always Come To us.. In the middle or in the end of our working hours^^ Lot of jokes we tell each other, There's always something to laugh.. No matter how bad our day is^^ Believe it or not, When Our day is so bad, Bad things happened and Polute our Feeling. Laughter is a Dry cleaning while Crying Is a wet Cleaning...=)
Laughter and Enough sleep are also two of Best Cures in a Doctor's Book^^
So When u feel like Bored, Stress oR depressed try to laugh, Read a jokes, Or do anything U like. It will make u feel better..
Here I share One Joke With you^^

One day In a History class for Junior High school, The teacher Give a question to all The students. "What Will happen If There is third world War?" then the Students are silent, but then There's one Student break the silence. He said "Oh My GOD !!!" then the teacher asked "Why? what's Wrong?" He give a worried face to the teacher. and guess what is His answer?(answer down There)=E
Hope I can Share One small chuckles With You all.. "Dont worry Be happy"=)
































































"It would be a huge problem. There'd be another chapter in the history book to study."

You are You !

Personality Of each people On this Earth are Differents, Nobody are the same.. They are all Unique as what they are^^
Like in my experience 19 years plus I live, I have met a lot of Peoples^^ And there are still a lot more around the world..
but then there was a time I found Myself Become Different, I know and I realize that Im not What I am used to be.. There are two Possibilities, 1 a person is Grown Up so that maybe he/she had some changes in the way i think and act. 2 they put a "mask" to become different purposely or not purposely under some reasons..
in the First one I think we can see from Ourself, now and Before it was different... When We are still a Kid and maybe like me now as a teenager^^ i feel the Difference so real and Ironic sometimes If we Think about the past memory how we Live our life and How we react to this so called life itself^^
I was so childish I realize that, So emotional, Easily get angry hahahaha=D remembering bout old times I always laughed one^,^\ try to imagine when U was a Small kid, It always Nice to Remember even though maybe some People had a traumatic Memory In their Childhood memories.. It can affect The Person itself... maybe I dont have that kind of Experience But i believe its hard to had one. there's one of my friend ever said to me that he feel cursed, why does all this happen to him.. i can say he's one Of my school friend. We Rarely To contact each other now, but Everyone can see he's much better now.. From this we can learn that everything happens in our life There must be Something we can get from it.. And Sometimes it depends on how we see the things itself.. Tips: When something Bad is happening to u, Try to see it From another point of view, Who knows that There is A Good Things Hidden inside. Like When a person was lost in the Desert And Somehow He found a treasure in the middle of nowhere..(one of Sinbad's Story)
Back To the main Topic . . =)
In the Number 2, the one who put "mask" Unpurposely is Because maybe they trauma about something that happened in their life. For example You see Some Emo People, They Always like feel So death, numb, sad and even depressed.. That happen because there must be something happened before and affect How they Think.. but Doesnt mean that they are A freak.. They Need Help, There must be something, some way . . I Can said Like that Because I had experience once^^
But For me Gothic and Emo things i see now as an art^^ and I like it.. Once again Depends on how U see things Rite?^^
And For the One Who put a "mask" Purposely, it isnt always that the person is Looking for attention But They just cant show their real emotion to people. They hide it For any reason, Some hide it to Protect Something, Some hide it To achieve something, Some even hide it For pride..
to protect something, Sounds weird but for example, A person hiding his emotion when he is sad in order to protect someone else that maybe Can be affected if He/she knows the person real emotion. In ROmance things it happens, people Sacrifice for the One He/she Loved.. But This Thing Can lead the person to Suffer To him/herself...
To achieve something, in some condition a person must keep their emotion stabil, some Hide it. For example in a workplace if there maybe another person he/she doesnt like but he/she must keep The Proffesionality in Work in order to achieve his/her career goal..
For Pride, This Oftenly happen to male^^ male ussualy Seem so straight no matter what happen. Their face expression seem so monotone.. So for example, They feel really sad even almost crying but believe it or not. They will try their best to hide that, Some are Pro they can hide it really well until people thinks that he got no feelings. But some are cant, And people oftenly said those kind of guy is A whiner, weak and etc... That's Why they Put mask To hide their Emotion...
I didnt denied that I do that also, maybe i look stiff and strrong on the outside but inside here.. I can say im not so Tough^^\ hwhwhwh...
But I feel happy To be Myself, Well I was one of the Emo People but Now I understand Why Sh*t happens In life, They made me Down, They Crushed me, They made me Lay On the ground, But they make me wants To Get Up, makes me see where I slipped, And makes me walk steady In this Road Called Life^^
To be Myself Is always Comfortable, No need to worry because me is Who I am..
LeT the world know you as Who You are not as You Think you should be...=)
Just be Yourself . .

Life instructions^^

Life Instructions...
Sometimes i wonder How to walk on this Life properly, Is there any theory For it?^^
From what i See Life Is 10% of what happen to us and 90% how we react to it...
Believe it or not, every people are different, each one of them has something Unique..
its affected by How They React to What happens to them... when they face a problem, Every people has their own way to solve it^^
Some are pessimist, some are optimist, Some are Hedonist, Or even Hypocrite but Few Are wise..
Today I found This Picture So interesting...
have fun, Do not hurt people, accept defeat and Strive to be happy
Im agree with this 4 things ..
what do U thinks?
Have Fun, Yes it is... u must have fun in this life, Even though I can say that every people face problems in their life.. There people say that " God Didnt gave us all things to enjoy life, but Life to enjoy All things"...^^
Do not Hurt people... Who wants to be Hurt In this world? tell me... Nobody right? So why Hurt people when U dont want to be Hurt by People? Life is about take and Give, U harvest from what U've planted...
Accept defeat... wHen U are lose, defeat, or things are going not Like what u desire... Doesnt mean it all ends there... Sometimes when we lose something, We achieve something also.. wwe can learn why this happen^^ There's word "do not Look where fall, but look where U slipped"
Strive to Be HappY... Who wants To be Happy? I bet everyone will say Yes... If U want to be HappY then Go For it ! But Doesnt mean I suggest You to Do everything, i mean everything Including hurting people, Or I can say like U care bout Urself only... Remember the second Instructions^^
"Destiny is not a matter of chance. It is a matter of choice: it is not a thing to be waited for,it is a thing to be achieved."

Go For what U wanna be In this Life ! everyone can achieve what they want to be, There' will be an Obstacles waiting.. But Persistence, no matter How Slow U walk, As long as U keep On going U will arrive at The place u want to be...^^

A Listening Ear

Sometimes when we grieve

We’d rather be alone

Sit and Thinking about Life

Even though We may find out

What to do, But if there's

someone To talk

With a listening ears

It's just So Much better

It isn’t that we seek advice

or Sympathy from him/her

It’s just that talking offers release

And a listening ear brings comfort..

Just Like What I had Today, There was a time when I feel so Depressed. I found Obstacles in Life All comes at once and I have No one to listen... I kept all by myself, I get through it all alone . .

I feel quite ok that i can Pass most of all Those problems even though there's still one I just cant do anything about it.. I spent my time by sitting at my

Silent dark room Alone Thinking what Should i Do and have I done something wrong... Night after night, Day after day pass by and SLowly Those time was pass... but This day Finally I can share These to Arlene^^ Thank you so Much Lene~

Little story About Her, I met her at Church when one of my friend had a friend and he Introduced me to her^^ Its not a coincidence i think, Because I se

e that she Understand How I feel and I Can understand How she feel When We tell each other About our story...

Well

Talking about friends, I see that Friends is one of the nicest things you can have, and one of the best things you can be.. Honestly when i Think About all my friends, Back in Bandung Or here... I miss the time when Im hang out with them... Problems happens, Crack Occurs but That's Life... I hope that someday everything will be Just fine For Everyone^^ Even now Not only Friends, I wish for people that i was see as an enemy to be Just Fine . .

I feel I grown up Bit by bit . . This is where I start lol

Super duper Tired, But im Happy !(^,<)\

Woaaaaaah.... Today I Feel so tired with Daily activity which is I must Wake Up at 8, prepare for Training>,< 10 o clock start Work and Today is Quite busy. PLUS the Irritating chef is really a Big Big Problem there... I had to Delay my break some more, another Late time For Lunch... Gastrict some more, Lucky I bring my medicine=P
finallY we can go home With Chef Scolding before, he said We got attitude problem This and that la~ damn It ! We all Know he got a lot of Experience in the industry, He said he cant teach us because our attitude but He also stupid la... He cant teach Us Properly, He Give pressure all the time Instead of Spirit... ha~ I dunt care anymore la~ On the way back home, traffic jam everywhere argh.... then, Pity me... I must go to Level 17 then the Lift suddenly Stop at lvl 7 all dark inside.... lucky the door still can open, then i take stairs until level 17... So tired...
Then, Lukito arrive also, He reminds me that today got A Futsal Friendly match with Indofoot>,<>,<
hehehehhe....
i feel so weak on the way to Extreme park there, but then When I enter the court... SUddenlly I feel energetic again !^^ hahahaha=P game after game we played and then Finally its finished...
I feel like want to play more>,< but i have another Day of training Tomorrow...
so I Decide to go back home, heuh~ we must walk like about 80 meter to go and wait for taxi on the side of road there.. Thanx to God in only 5 Minutes there's taxi stop there and We Go home...
Finally im arrive at Home, Then at that time I feel Sooooooooo Tired~,~
I take a rest a while, I was thinking to go For my dinner but I think Im too Tired...
I Learn something today, I was tired, Stress, upset with all things happen in my training place.. But in the end.. I can Play futsaL which is I like the Most among all of my activity^^
So Whenever You feel sad, Upset, Tired off all Things in life, Just keep On believe that after we faced every problem in our life, there will be a Joy after . . Just Like In my small experience which I had today=)
"The realist sees reality as concrete. The optimist sees reality as clay. and Optimism itself is the foundation of courage.."
Believe it or not, Sometimes Honestly I am Pessimistic>,<\ Because The nice part about being a pessimist is that you are constantly being either proven right or pleasantly surprised..
In reality I see that people can be either Both Depends On situation...

Journey

From where I started to where I am today
The journey has been long & tiring
from nothing to some thing I am today
It’s not been an easy journey.

Tried with luck; Tried with hard work
Tried with destiny too
But nothing worked for me.
It’s not been an easy journey.

Found love but lost love too
Found friends but lost them too
Found money, even lost that one too
But the journey continued

Today I stand facing the world
It’s beckoning me to start all over again
While I miss my love
With whom I could start the journey again

I want to move on by my own power
Even without my friends & money
As life moves on; I move on with it
To a journey that never concludes

Walking alone on this path
With guts and determination
I want to continue the journey again
A journey where i could write A history
As the man who achieve his Dream

Tonight Before I sleep, I sit here in My silent room thinking . . what Have I Done In the past, and What i wanna Do In the next day...
I was Fallen, hurt, And petrified... But now I Rise again to face this World and so called Life
For Everyone I love and Loved Me . .
New day will Come and I shall continue My journey again...

Start again, Temptation

This day, I Finally decide to start my blog again... well Im not sure How Long I can keep going, Because Nowadays Im doing my entrepreuneurship at Temptation Which Take most of My time And My power to do things>,<
I want to share my story at Temptation where I do My Training nowadays...
First time when My lecturer Offered me and my Group Of this new project from Taylor's I was kinda Interested Because I think It can help me to reach my goal to Open My own restaurant=)
so I Decide To go For it, Honestly I'm so Excited about it. But now.....
It is really Different from what i imagine, and What they said BEfore...
They Said We(all The trainees) Can Decide everything we wants for the menu, Organisation, marketting target and we also have 1 Advisor Which Is a Chef from Industry that they said he has A lot of experience. I admit that He has a Lot of Experience compare to us...
But Instead of Advisor, What we have Now is a DICTATOR !!! Which decide Everything, See everything On his Own way without Considering about us... Well we can suggest this and that but he always Refuse and Push His Own Mind... He decide a lot of things by himself and never ask For our opinions.. DAMN it !!
Then He always like to Give pressure, When We got problem or two He always like add another Problem in. If he Scold us because of our mistakes i think it is still can be accepted but Please, Give Us support also... This Chef Or We Called him The Polar bear or (crew name)Dad's really really Irritating... Nobody likes him, even oen of our customer ever said "Your Chef so arrogant", "U'r chef so scary la, He looks like some H*rny Uncle" and also "U'r Chef So Lan xi la~"
Even the Customer Can see....(Like This !!)
well, yesterday we decide to Do all things by ourself. The chef also know that we want him to put his hands out that day.. And The result, Satisfying !!! 3060 K without Function, No Complaints, No returned food... Work all Finished on time^^ Thanx To all The Crew !!
That day we work Peacefully, After the chef said "I wont touch anything, I wont give u comment or anything. I will Just see what can U guys Do..."
That is good For us, But today I dunno why... He start make a mess again...>,<
What I'm affraid is, We all The student Is Being used intentionally or not I dunno and Im not sure...
But What i think now, My goal is to finish my training..
Well a lot of things happen, sad or happy...
But Now when I sit and Relax, I feel thankfull
I can through a lot of problem, Not alone but together With all my friends...
I also Can Learn to control emotion better,
Learn How to Ratify things
Actually I always believe that In every thing we do, Good Or bad we can always have something to learn^^

Read this and Put this on your Head !
"Cheer Up, chin up, sTand up Put Your Smile On and Face this World ! Its not easy but there's Always a way... Be positive, Dont worry be HappY..."