Beside Those Daily activity i always done, I feel Something is just not right in Me, Myself and My life..
Dunno What's the thing make it seems uncomplete.. Hmp.. at this hour i've just Tried to sleep but I cant.. again.. it happens Many time already...~_~ dunno What to do? Should Smack Myself Until im collapse?? Sounds stupid, Lucky i still got my Logic Here..
hmp...
what I can Say is just, BORING... it is so Freaking Boring... I feel Not comfortable Everyday, I always want something But i dont even know what;s the thing I want... sounds Weird, it is... I even sometimes look at my reflection and ask..."What exactly Do u want?? What are U Looking For actually?" still I cant find the answer... Do I need Money? I got...Do I need Friends? i think I got.. Do I need love? hm.. Maybe... hahahaha sounds Desperate.. XD
I cant even Understand Myself..
I was thinking do i have this kind of feelin before? I think bout 20 minutes... and I think yes. when I feel lost someone I really Love.. why a~? I dont feel I want to turnback time to The Past, or maybe what I want is someone who really cares for me? not as family or friends, maybe more than that. maybe I am truly desperate...=_=\ Is it my feeling Beat My Mind? My GOd ~ i really dunno what happens To me ~! argh.... feels like want to explode ~ KABOOOM !!!!
SmiLe SmiLe SmiLe Is what I've to do Now... That's what I try to Tell Myself... But It's just so Damn Hard>.<\ Maybe the Question is, "Who is the One Out there Can make Me Smile SmiLe SmiLe?"... I can say the distance Of me and my fams are far right now... My best Friends Also... And I'm single hwhwhwwh... I should been More Thankful for what i have now.. Some people just have less Than me.. But still Im Human here>,< Really dunno What to do Im so Confuse... i think there's no use to think so much Now...
better try to sleep again... heuh~
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