What Am I feeling Right now exactly??

Day by day Has past, New term has start, Some assignment will be finish in No time...
Beside Those Daily activity i always done, I feel Something is just not right in Me, Myself and My life..
Dunno What's the thing make it seems uncomplete.. Hmp.. at this hour i've just Tried to sleep but I cant.. again.. it happens Many time already...~_~ dunno What to do? Should Smack Myself Until im collapse?? Sounds stupid, Lucky i still got my Logic Here..
hmp...
what I can Say is just, BORING... it is so Freaking Boring... I feel Not comfortable Everyday, I always want something But i dont even know what;s the thing I want... sounds Weird, it is... I even sometimes look at my reflection and ask..."What exactly Do u want?? What are U Looking For actually?" still I cant find the answer... Do I need Money? I got...Do I need Friends? i think I got.. Do I need love? hm.. Maybe... hahahaha sounds Desperate.. XD
I cant even Understand Myself..
I was thinking do i have this kind of feelin before? I think bout 20 minutes... and I think yes. when I feel lost someone I really Love.. why a~? I dont feel I want to turnback time to The Past, or maybe what I want is someone who really cares for me? not as family or friends, maybe more than that. maybe I am truly desperate...=_=\ Is it my feeling Beat My Mind? My GOd ~ i really dunno what happens To me ~! argh.... feels like want to explode ~ KABOOOM !!!!
SmiLe  SmiLe SmiLe Is what I've to do Now... That's what I try to Tell Myself... But It's just so Damn Hard>.<\ Maybe the Question is, "Who is the One Out there Can make Me Smile SmiLe SmiLe?"... I can say the distance Of me and my fams are far right now... My best Friends Also... And I'm single hwhwhwwh... I should been More Thankful for what i have now.. Some people just have less Than me.. But still Im Human here>,< Really dunno What to do Im so Confuse... i think there's no use to think so much Now...
better try to sleep again... heuh~

favourite Kits

Once again Im Confuse to Choose Between Two Choices...~,~ Well its Not something So Important for some peoples but It is for me... hm..
it is about something that I Use In my favourite Activity=P
Soccer ~~~~~
First of all I like Black red And White, I like To ShooT In Soccer playing after Goalkeeping..
ANd Last week I planing to buy a new pair of Futsal Shoes... Which One should I choose???
Adidas Preadator or Nike t90??? hmp hmp hmp....>,<\

Back To KL

Im back to KL... AGAIn... SO Freakin Lazy Honestly Dunno WHy hwhwhwhw...
Maybe because Leisure is all the way back In my Hometown hohoho...
Well then I cant let may Guard Down Now... Must go Slowly, catch my spirit Back and do all The Best For the Best Result ~! GanbattE Me !!! >,<
I kinda Confuse bout tomorow.. Should I go Class?? Hm... 1st week Always got nothing to do.. I bet some of my classmates will bring cards hehehehhehe...
Let's see FOr tomorrow la.. Hope I can wake Up...
nite nite ~~~

Garink Pisan~ Plus Emosi~ gini nee~

Gilee Gileee~ Plg Bandung, Guwe dah tunggu tunggu dr kpn bs plg.. Gw pikir Gw bs maen ma tmen2 rame, trus~ tp... its so different with what I expected... I see Now "They" Got Their Own Business to Do Every single day.. They said To me, lets Go do this and that but.. Practically it was words Only No action ... NATO~ No action Talk Only... hate those Words... Who's My real Friend Actually I really Dont Know Who.. I thought it was them, It was her, It was Him.. But practically I really Not sure who's The one... Hahahaha~ What a "Friends" I have...
I was Really Try To gather them around  But No one seems to Give a shit about it... for now I Don't wanna care about them Already~ I will Do what I wanna Do, I dont Give A shit bout them anymore~ There was a time I see that They Come to me when They Need SOmething From me, I see How they Make friends, They make Friends to People which They can Take advantage From.. I really cant believe i said this but It is the fact From what I see and I feel... I feel Sucks, and Stupid bcause I realize I still need Friends... why cant I Feel Comfort when Im alone? I wish I can~ am I Hard to Be understand By People? Or it is just There's No one Can understand Me at all....  Tomorrow I will go Somewhere COmplete My List.. I Dont care With what People ask me to do, I want to enjoy this once a year Holiday... Dont wanna talk and Dont wanna Hear~ Let's see what will "they" Do? Do they care? Or They are Really like what i've said "Dont give a Shit About it..."

To All My fake Friends

U sAiD dat u HaD mY bAcK
ThRoUgH tHe GoOd TiMeS aNd ThE bAd
WhEn I wAs HaPpY oR wHeN i WaS sAd
BuT wHeN i TrUeLy NeEdEd U
AnD cOuLdN't MaKe It ThRoUgH
WhEn I LoOkEd BeHiNd Me To SeE iF u WeRe ThErE
I ReaLiZeD dat u TrULy DiDn'T cArE

Soccer Is My passion

Soccer is the game

My life My Passion And My Game

Soccer gives my fame
it gives me life, Cheer and SMiLe

Soccer is what make me live
soccer is what makes me give

soccer is the start of it all
soccer is simply better then Eveything 

When I'm HappY I Am playing Soccer

When I'm Sad I want to play Soccer

When Im in Love I Share Soccer with Her

When Im Single I have Love for Soccer


When I'm Healthy I play Soccer
When I'm Injured I watch Soccer


Whenever, Whatever Soccer Fever Forever~~
Some people say soccer's a matter of Win Or lose, but it isn't.  It's much more important than that...

Back To Hometown(^,^)/

2nd July 2010

Finally I can Go back fly to My Hometown Bandung~ With all Memories in 19 Years, Time Seems So fast Goes By~ I wish I can meet everyone Who take a Role In the scene Of my Life^^
friends, relatives, teacher, Some1 more than that hahaha XD
it feels So COld here~,~ maybe bcause i get used to Hot place like KL.. *jacket On
Flashback are always show up when Im hang around anywhere In Bandung~ I miss some of it, I laugh to some of it, and I can Accept Some of it~
Life are so beautiful whenever we Find it so Hard or easy..
Life is hard to understand but we can learn to understand it~
But unfortunately this time i Kinda stuck, No Driving license, mine was expired already...>,<\
Im waiting for it to be finished, i kinda thinking does this mean i need to spend my time more at home??
haiah~~~
Im lookin forward to go Hang out, SOmeone Saves Meee~~~~T,T
Futsal FutsaL FutsaL, I like it Very much and Nothing can stop From playing it~ hwhwhwhw...
I realize Everything we Likes today Some of them was found In our Childhood.. Childhood can affect how a person Lives their Life..


"The older I grow the more earnestly I feel that the few joys of childhood are the best that life has to give. "