A Listening Ear

Sometimes when we grieve

We’d rather be alone

Sit and Thinking about Life

Even though We may find out

What to do, But if there's

someone To talk

With a listening ears

It's just So Much better

It isn’t that we seek advice

or Sympathy from him/her

It’s just that talking offers release

And a listening ear brings comfort..

Just Like What I had Today, There was a time when I feel so Depressed. I found Obstacles in Life All comes at once and I have No one to listen... I kept all by myself, I get through it all alone . .

I feel quite ok that i can Pass most of all Those problems even though there's still one I just cant do anything about it.. I spent my time by sitting at my

Silent dark room Alone Thinking what Should i Do and have I done something wrong... Night after night, Day after day pass by and SLowly Those time was pass... but This day Finally I can share These to Arlene^^ Thank you so Much Lene~

Little story About Her, I met her at Church when one of my friend had a friend and he Introduced me to her^^ Its not a coincidence i think, Because I se

e that she Understand How I feel and I Can understand How she feel When We tell each other About our story...

Well

Talking about friends, I see that Friends is one of the nicest things you can have, and one of the best things you can be.. Honestly when i Think About all my friends, Back in Bandung Or here... I miss the time when Im hang out with them... Problems happens, Crack Occurs but That's Life... I hope that someday everything will be Just fine For Everyone^^ Even now Not only Friends, I wish for people that i was see as an enemy to be Just Fine . .

I feel I grown up Bit by bit . . This is where I start lol

Super duper Tired, But im Happy !(^,<)\

Woaaaaaah.... Today I Feel so tired with Daily activity which is I must Wake Up at 8, prepare for Training>,< 10 o clock start Work and Today is Quite busy. PLUS the Irritating chef is really a Big Big Problem there... I had to Delay my break some more, another Late time For Lunch... Gastrict some more, Lucky I bring my medicine=P
finallY we can go home With Chef Scolding before, he said We got attitude problem This and that la~ damn It ! We all Know he got a lot of Experience in the industry, He said he cant teach us because our attitude but He also stupid la... He cant teach Us Properly, He Give pressure all the time Instead of Spirit... ha~ I dunt care anymore la~ On the way back home, traffic jam everywhere argh.... then, Pity me... I must go to Level 17 then the Lift suddenly Stop at lvl 7 all dark inside.... lucky the door still can open, then i take stairs until level 17... So tired...
Then, Lukito arrive also, He reminds me that today got A Futsal Friendly match with Indofoot>,<>,<
hehehehhe....
i feel so weak on the way to Extreme park there, but then When I enter the court... SUddenlly I feel energetic again !^^ hahahaha=P game after game we played and then Finally its finished...
I feel like want to play more>,< but i have another Day of training Tomorrow...
so I Decide to go back home, heuh~ we must walk like about 80 meter to go and wait for taxi on the side of road there.. Thanx to God in only 5 Minutes there's taxi stop there and We Go home...
Finally im arrive at Home, Then at that time I feel Sooooooooo Tired~,~
I take a rest a while, I was thinking to go For my dinner but I think Im too Tired...
I Learn something today, I was tired, Stress, upset with all things happen in my training place.. But in the end.. I can Play futsaL which is I like the Most among all of my activity^^
So Whenever You feel sad, Upset, Tired off all Things in life, Just keep On believe that after we faced every problem in our life, there will be a Joy after . . Just Like In my small experience which I had today=)
"The realist sees reality as concrete. The optimist sees reality as clay. and Optimism itself is the foundation of courage.."
Believe it or not, Sometimes Honestly I am Pessimistic>,<\ Because The nice part about being a pessimist is that you are constantly being either proven right or pleasantly surprised..
In reality I see that people can be either Both Depends On situation...

Journey

From where I started to where I am today
The journey has been long & tiring
from nothing to some thing I am today
It’s not been an easy journey.

Tried with luck; Tried with hard work
Tried with destiny too
But nothing worked for me.
It’s not been an easy journey.

Found love but lost love too
Found friends but lost them too
Found money, even lost that one too
But the journey continued

Today I stand facing the world
It’s beckoning me to start all over again
While I miss my love
With whom I could start the journey again

I want to move on by my own power
Even without my friends & money
As life moves on; I move on with it
To a journey that never concludes

Walking alone on this path
With guts and determination
I want to continue the journey again
A journey where i could write A history
As the man who achieve his Dream

Tonight Before I sleep, I sit here in My silent room thinking . . what Have I Done In the past, and What i wanna Do In the next day...
I was Fallen, hurt, And petrified... But now I Rise again to face this World and so called Life
For Everyone I love and Loved Me . .
New day will Come and I shall continue My journey again...

Start again, Temptation

This day, I Finally decide to start my blog again... well Im not sure How Long I can keep going, Because Nowadays Im doing my entrepreuneurship at Temptation Which Take most of My time And My power to do things>,<
I want to share my story at Temptation where I do My Training nowadays...
First time when My lecturer Offered me and my Group Of this new project from Taylor's I was kinda Interested Because I think It can help me to reach my goal to Open My own restaurant=)
so I Decide To go For it, Honestly I'm so Excited about it. But now.....
It is really Different from what i imagine, and What they said BEfore...
They Said We(all The trainees) Can Decide everything we wants for the menu, Organisation, marketting target and we also have 1 Advisor Which Is a Chef from Industry that they said he has A lot of experience. I admit that He has a Lot of Experience compare to us...
But Instead of Advisor, What we have Now is a DICTATOR !!! Which decide Everything, See everything On his Own way without Considering about us... Well we can suggest this and that but he always Refuse and Push His Own Mind... He decide a lot of things by himself and never ask For our opinions.. DAMN it !!
Then He always like to Give pressure, When We got problem or two He always like add another Problem in. If he Scold us because of our mistakes i think it is still can be accepted but Please, Give Us support also... This Chef Or We Called him The Polar bear or (crew name)Dad's really really Irritating... Nobody likes him, even oen of our customer ever said "Your Chef so arrogant", "U'r chef so scary la, He looks like some H*rny Uncle" and also "U'r Chef So Lan xi la~"
Even the Customer Can see....(Like This !!)
well, yesterday we decide to Do all things by ourself. The chef also know that we want him to put his hands out that day.. And The result, Satisfying !!! 3060 K without Function, No Complaints, No returned food... Work all Finished on time^^ Thanx To all The Crew !!
That day we work Peacefully, After the chef said "I wont touch anything, I wont give u comment or anything. I will Just see what can U guys Do..."
That is good For us, But today I dunno why... He start make a mess again...>,<
What I'm affraid is, We all The student Is Being used intentionally or not I dunno and Im not sure...
But What i think now, My goal is to finish my training..
Well a lot of things happen, sad or happy...
But Now when I sit and Relax, I feel thankfull
I can through a lot of problem, Not alone but together With all my friends...
I also Can Learn to control emotion better,
Learn How to Ratify things
Actually I always believe that In every thing we do, Good Or bad we can always have something to learn^^

Read this and Put this on your Head !
"Cheer Up, chin up, sTand up Put Your Smile On and Face this World ! Its not easy but there's Always a way... Be positive, Dont worry be HappY..."

New page, Old memories . .^^

i had fallen into
a pit of despair
i looked around
no one was there
i tried all i could
to get back out
uncertainly closed in
with fear and with doubt

but a light broke through
it shown from above
it filled me with happiness
with joy and with love
then all of a sudden
a hand reached for me
the warmth touched my soul
it helped me to see

That God Given us all things
To enjoy Life But
life to enjoy all things,
Mistakes are not intended
To make us down Rather
Than They make us Stronger..

This Is the Begining of Once again
My new page of life although I still have
Old memories inside me But I'll live My life
With A new Way . .=)

This Is what people said
"No matter how Big is A Storm, It will Stop.."
Now My storm is stop, and I'm waiting For
The sunshine to comes....

Keep On bleeding

Blood running everywhere.
Dripping all down my skin.
Still not enough.
Must hurt some more.

It's my way.
To get through the day.
To keep my hell at bay.

Bang my head against the wall.
Still not enough.
Must hurt myself some more.

Find a weapon.
Find and open my speacial box.
Must do some more.

For hurt I do.
I'd rather hurt on the outside.
Hurt even more

Everything I start Happily Its ended With Sadness

I feel So Empty . .
U know what?
An empty heart has no Smile
An empty heart has no love to share
An empty heart is a lonely hole
An empty heart is like a stone
An empty heart has no Passion
An empty heart gets no satisfaction
An empty heart cannot cry
An empty heart might as well die
An empty heart is so sad
My heart is now empty
‘Cause I am not glad . .